A year in the making

( This is James at two, I just love that he is holding the world. Who would have guessed how true this would be for us!)


A year ago today Randy and I came to the decision that we wanted to adopt again. We had started infertility work ups and were on the path to in vitro thinking that is what each of us wanted. I was doing it for Randy, I felt like I needed to do everything in my power to give him a child biologically. The truth is I just wanted another child and really adoption would have been my first choice at this point even though in the past I truly wanted to give birth. I knew how much adopting James had changed our lives and that birthing a child is not the only way to be a mother in fact it takes a whole lot more than giving birth to be a mom. Not that I would mind if I ever become pregnant, it is just not as important as it once was. Now the funny thing is Randy was going through with the infertility work ups because he thought that it was I wanted most of all, hmmmm ? Well one night out of the blue we started talking and it all came out that what we both desired was to enlarge our family and adoption for us is the answer and what we want. What is more we both believe with all our hearts it is what God has for our family and every time I look at James or hear him laugh I know just how perfect Gods plan really is, He knew from the start what would be our perfect family and I have no doubt that Miah will be everything we could possibly want in daughter and more. The call to China has been in my heart for a long time and Randy and I knew from a young age that we would adopt weather we had bio children or not so to me this is just more evidence that the Lord had already carved out our family and we just needed to catch up to it. We have peace knowing that no matter how long the journey it will come together and Miah will be home with us some day soon.