Thursday, February 14, 2008

Back


Back to my hobby! It seems like I have been away from my scrapbooking forever and I am so glad to get back to it. I would like to say that it was just time that kept me away, you know being to busy, but really I was having a few problems. See I have a few health issues that when I take care of them are no big deal and easy to control, but when I don't every thing gets out of wack. Well I needed to have a real big wake up call and I did so now the moody blues are on the way out and I can focus on the little things I love again. When I would sit down before I would feel agitated and not creative so I would sigh and just leave it undone. That was not like me and there were a few other signs as well like getting angry over little things or being in a hurry to get no where. Oh and then there was not wanting to get off the couch. Yep I was depressed and it showed. Now I do not take meds for depression, I do not need them really. What I did need was to recognize that my health is important and that I can not live in denial or try and wish it away. I am a diabetic, plane and simple and it sucks. Really really sucks, but I am blessed in that right now all I need are a couple of pills some exercise and to eat right to make me feel better and to live a long and happy life. I was angry, and hurt. Why would God let me be this way? I do not know, but I do know that he did not leave me and he does love me and some day I will understand his plan, and in the mean time he has given me the tools to overcome! I have so much to be happy about and it is time I get back to being happy... Watch out world I am back and stronger than ever!

5 comments:

Shannon said...

Stacey: Glad you are feeling better and take care of yourself. I too am diabetic (insulin-dependent) and know that if you don't watch it and eat right that you can feel lousy. BTW...we met before at Erin's house for a scrapbooking evening. You were still waiting for your referral and I hadn't moved to NJ yet. I remember you were a fantastic scrapbooker! Very creative!

Angela said...

Glad to hear you are feeling better!!!

It is so hard to understand God sometimes, but we just need to trust Him and know that in time we'll be able to see the situation completely through His eyes. Perhaps there are other people with this problem that only you will be able to reach... you never know what God has in store for you.

Praying for you and believing that God is still in the healing business and knowing that you are completely in His hands. :-)

Angela

Angela said...

BTW, your scrapbook page is beautiful!!! I love scrapbooking, too!!! :-)

Kelley said...

I'm glad to hear that you're feeling better and that you're back to doing what you love. You are a fabulous mom and seriously talented artist!

He does have a plan and as you know, it's not always what we think it's suppose to be. You are in His strong arms and are safe.

Love,
K.

Briana's Mom said...

Glad you are back and feeling better! I am just starting to look through my scrapbooking supplies again. So hard to do with an 18 month old. But I am going to try!